As I reflect on this past year, I am filled with overwhelming gratitude. The past three years have been such a incredible journey for me personally. What I have learned about myself, about tools that have helped me get to where I am today.
Although I could, and probably should, write a book about this journey, I will share a brief overview. Four years ago, I went through a “grey divorce,” a story of it’s own. The outcome of that story was a woman that lacked self-confidence, was far from happy, did not love herself and poured all of her energy into work to find some sort of self-worth. I could not look myself in the mirror and appreciate the woman that God had intentionally created for a very specific purpose because, honestly, I was just existing, not living. No one knew, including me, how I was wasting precious time each and every day by attempting to do what everyone else thought I should be doing, attempting to do anything to receive even a slight indication that I was appreciated and loved.
It was not until I was introduced to a program, The Year of Miracles, that I began to understand. By listening to hours of speakers, reading book after book, traveling to seminars, and most importantly, hiring a personal life coach, did I begin to expand my awareness of who I am. We cannot change our past, we cannot start over, but we can create a new beginning. And I did. I began.
I learned an entirely new vocabulary, alignment, grounded, gratitude, manifestation, being present, purpose, energy, vibration, meditation. My relationship with God got real. The first year was a struggle, no lie. I faced some hard truths. The second year, the tools became easier to use, the concepts easier to understand and integrate into what was happening in my life. By the end of the second year, I was seeing real progress.
Today, I am at peace. My mantra is “Surrender, Trust, & Release.” I can do that, which if you would have known me three years ago, you would have not have believed it possible. I know when to let go of things that are not consistent with who I am, my highest purpose, and the greater good. For those that meditate, there is a place that is refereed to as “The Gap.” It’s that space between your breaths. When you can find that space, and be that present, you connect. You connect with God and who He intended you to be.
My story has many chapters, as does yours. I can’t rewrite any of them, but I can be intentional about the chapter I am writing today. And so, grateful for where I am today, I ponder what to put out there for this coming year in terms of Intentions. It is not something I will do lightly and without much thought, but with much discernment as to what is my purpose here in this world, how can I best serve others, and what will make life just really Kick Ass good.